Dear Lucille,
Thank you. I haven't been brave enough to call Shayne. And I put off going out until Tom can be in the house, because I can't leave important things behind in this house and it is too much to carry. Sometimes my mind gets off on other things and I forget about the Shayne problem for an hour or two and then I remember, nothing has changed, the problem is still unsolved. Xmas has passed. New Year's and no Shayne. Then the weight comes back again. Naturally, I feel in the hands of a huge, conspiring spirit who has conducted her disappearance with the tacit cooperation of most of the society. Yes. I believe it is a conspiracy and a crime. Suggestions have been made of this in the media with large news spreads on the Internet titled "SHAYNE X." I made copies of these advertisements and the dates in December they appeared on our opening page, www.uk.com, for the record. From my own case history, I know very well what people are capable of doing here, so it is not a shocking surprise that such things happen. As you know, I suffered horrible, grievous mutilations, and not a word of it ever got out to the world-at-large. Equally as mysterious, however, the heavily blackened skin conditions have receded in the last month and I seem to be approaching normalcy again. I know I must have received unseen, technological help in recovering to this degree. It was so hopeless for so many years. In my heart, I will pray for Shayne, for I don't believe she is safe. I hope she is alive and I love her so much. I relied on her emotionally so much. She was so unassuming and resilient. She did not have good paternal care and I could not be a strong, good mother here in this ultra white environment, divorced from a white man and trying to run a small business (music, publication, etc.). The permission to start a business, which I was given was a trick and a trap--not really allowed in Europe. Then Shayne was always sick (because I consulted with doctors) and there were many paranormal (and supernatural) events going on at the same time. Algean calls from time to time. He is now a father himself and apparently a very good one. He has learned all the unsaid obstacles that lie in this society, which you never can see, when you are not a black parent, trying to raise a mulatto child. He says very well the things I never could say or explain before. He knows how the people around conspire to take over the control of your child. But he is now aware of it and he tries to protects his child. Thomas never did. He would send her off with people I knew would be harmful to her. He wasn't like Algean. He always underminded my authority and encouraged Shayne to look to and to trust other people outside of the family, who were my enemies. He also taught her to take my word lightly, which has been harmful to her. He always made being in the house an ordeal for her, for they always got into arguments. But in the end, Shayne was non-judgemental and overly tolerant of fools and laggards.