New World Order

In the Post Office yesterday, after the lifting of the Heathrow fog, a lot of English-speaking tourists are standing around. They look Dutch until they open their mouths. Also yesterday, on the media were the obligatory references to "Shayne" (Warner) and "Higgins" (bike) in a Xmas movie about polio, where a young boy sees his sibling die on Xmas Eve, before he could give her a magnificent angel doll he earned for her.
The reality of another Xmas without Shayne begins to sink in. The day before yesterday, two visitors from Mentrum (the padded cell facility) left their calling card and a note in my mailbox. It's been almost a year since I last talked to them. I was sent to be examined by them, I guess because I was so disfigured and because I said in Dutch to the police "The walls have ears."
Their facility gives me nightmares. It is something out of the "X-Files" inventory. At night I can't sleep, imagining how a person could be thrown in a cell and completely evaporized or gassed or freeze-dried without anyone knowing. Is this the reason we are kept in quarantine, isolated from our daughter, and the outside world? Is this the reason many of the packages sent to me from my mother (two T-Shirts, a coat, plus others) are held up indefinitely by Customs?
What is more, I also fear picking up and breathing in many biological agents within their facility.
My recurring nightmare is that my daughter, Shayne, has been killed and may be buried in the walled garden, which glass doors from her bedroom, lead directly onto.
Is she there? Content to be forgotten, while the whole world thinks her an ungrateful, spoiled child, when possibly her life could deliberately have been ended in a country, in which there are no longer any viable laws and order?
A new world order has come to Holland. And the boss of this order keeps his judgements to himself. If he is biased or extreem, there is no monitor to intercede for the target victim. He could not have come into such power without the help of millions of people who work for money alone and close their eyes to the laws and who are disinterested in the fate of others, etc.